I seek refuge in You, Allah, from the accursed Devil.
In the name of Allah, the Most Merciful, the Especially Merciful,
I ask You, oh Allah (SWT)….
Save me from my wedding!* It’s driving me crazy!
Why, why, why, why? Why do I need so many clothes? I have only one body!
Why is the agony of choosing my wedding dress greater than the agony of choosing my husband?
Why, why, why, have I now spent more time with Meena Bazaar clothiers than I have with my husband-to-be? Daggummit!
I’m trying so hard not to curse, God…please bless me for my efforts.
In fact, God…please, oh most Patient One, bless me with patience.
With the mother who recites a to-do list in my bedroom at the crack of dawn every morning.
With the father torn between mourning my loss and practicing the wedding playlist. Oh Allah (SWT), please save me from my father’s singing and my uncle’s dancing.
(Don’t really do that. It wouldn’t be a wedding if my father didn’t sing I Married a Female Wrestler and my uncles unintentionally do the twist.)
With the relatives that ask embarrassing immaterial questions about my fiance’s wealth or looks. Allah (SWT), give me patience and grace as they micro-analyse my clothes, my weight or lack of, the gifts exchanged, the food, the hall, the décor. Oh most Patient One, give me the suboor not to clock them like Muhammad Ali. Oh most Patient One, give me the strength not to cry – my mascara will run and my false eyelashes will fall off.
Forgive my sharp tongue and my resentment– it is my parents’ wedding really, more than it is mine.
Oh Allah (SWT), oh Giver of Tranquility, give me stillness to let this beautiful change sink in. In my moments of anxiety – am I doing the right thing, is this the right guy, am I good enough for him, will we always be happy, will I always love him and will he always love me? – Allah (SWT), give me an answer from unexpected places, as You always have. I am only human. I know only what is now – I don’t know the future and I can’t change my past. Allah (SWT), have mercy on us, guide us to repentance and put love and mercy between our hearts. Only You can protect us from Shaitan. Only You can show me just how stupid my fears were by making our life together more wonderful than I could have expected. Allah (SWT), I surrender my will, my destiny and my marriage to You.
Ameen, summa Ameen!
*Not my marriage. Just my wedding.
The Happy (and a little bit stressed out) Muslimah